Suddenly I just feel so sad, don't know why. And I'm freezing and sweating, am I sick or what? My life's OK; except for that I need more money; and I am missing M.; received a letter two days ago, but that seems soooooo long ago now. I don't wanna be sad!!! I wanna do many things; this is the right time to murder and create. Well, maybe I feel better tomorrow. And frankly, I'm hungry, no money for food. Well, life is great, I tell you, 2003 is 23. Totally asexual, strange feeling. Have to do something...