About 5 in the morning. Can't sleep without her. Watching the picture Tomas shot while she and I kissed a few weeks ago. Listening to Mitch Ryder & the Detroit Wheels right now. Smoking another cigarette. Hungry, but as usual there's nothing to eat (except for Tabasco). Strange dream again, was together with Cici, but she looked liked Nina (and had some of the mentality of Boel). Maybe there has been too many lovers, but I don't think so, not yet. Well, by now Helena doesn't mean so much to me. Have to look into the ceiling for another few hours...

About five hours later. Went to my ex-wife and drank coffee. Now back in the studio. Maybe able to sleep for a few hours, will give it a try. Waiting for Tony to call, and hoping Boel will call, haven't seen her for 3 days or something like that. Should try to install the flatbed scanner Pablo gave me, but I think I'll wait to do that, not in a technical mood today. Hoping to be able to paint, and it seems like I'm going to curate a big exhibition in Gothenburg, don't know when. Well, another cigarette. Gonna send a SMS to Boel before I give sleep another chance; don't know if I'm in love with her or whatever it is. Suppose we're lovers by now, we have been having at least 20 one night stands since February the 29th. Funny feeling having sex while playing Ramones' "I Wanna be Sedated" repeated for hours. There will be time to murder and create...