Now I am a little happier, met Boel yesterday and she was sober (she can be sober sometimes) & then she didn't care about that guy (as I suspected & said a long time ago but nobody believed me & said I should give her up), yeah, she totally ignored him & when we went to another bar he ran after us, there was no chance to escape. For sure, I realized from the beginning that their relationship differed a lot from the relationship she & I had. Almost feel a little sorry for him, but he stole her from me In front of my eyes. For sure, I'll try to get her back, I miss her so. A few days ago the gallery owner in Gothenburg phoned me, seems like he wants me to do a solo exhibition, the problem is that I don't know if I can produce enough in that short amount of time, but I'll try. And a few days before that I was walking hand in hand with Nikki & I liked it (it was quite innocent). Now I'm down in my atelier, drinkin' a beer, tryin' to avoid pills (ate too many yesterday, feel sick today). Then I have to go downtown in a couple of hours. Sleeping in a friends girlfriends apartment (well, she is my friend too), now I can take a shower whenever I want, & watch TV! For sure, my life has been quite strange the last 2 years...