Another morning in the studio, coffee and cigarettes, and suddenly I realize that it's time for a backup-lover, had almost forgot, or rather I should say: I didn't want to be with nobody else!!! But for sure, it's time for something else. Life is very dynamic, everyone seems to be in an endless party mode. Met some new friends, Thorsten and Whitney from Seattle, nice couple, but unfortunately they are leaving next thursday, sad, I like them. Some pills for breakfast, maybe I should eat something else, don't know when I last ate, maybe 3 days ago, not sure. And a new shirt, friend gave it to me yesterday after I had tried to convince him that he should sell it to me for about 200€, seems like I even have his shades. And it seems like Sara will show up in about 2 weeks, hope to meet her then, and frankly I feel that I want to do something dirty with her, it's almost 8 months since we had a wonderful session. Think I have some kind of hangover, not sure, pills take away most of it, but I'm a little shaky. S'pose I will go to the bar soon. It's strange, I meet Boel everyday (and I still miss her), I didn't do that when we had some kind of relationship. And now I remember I was kissing another girl last night just to see if Boel reacted. Such a pig I am! Well, I have to do something, think I will phone someone, yeah...